First of all, I had anticipated a lot about our session. I had imagined it a thousand times and I had anticipated all kinds of things. With the risk of disappointment. But at no time have I been disappointed. You asked me why I was smiling and I couldn't provide a satisfactory explanation at the time.. With a little hindsight I explain it by three reasons, maybe four.
First your smile, communicative, your way of playing seriously, without giving the impression that it is something too serious.
Ensuite, my satisfaction of discovering that I was not mistaken either in my desire or in the fact that you were the person with whom I wanted to experience this discovery. The confrontation with the fantasy could have been cruel, she was sweet.
Finally the joy of experiencing strong emotions, to feel strong sensations. To feel an extraordinary pleasure. To cross limits without having had the feeling of having gone too far.
And then maybe this final point. The feeling of not having been a burden. To have been able, meet your expectations. Not to have had the impression of disappointing you.
More technically, dare I say, I did not retain any physical marks from yesterday's session. A simple small burn on the finger without gravity and a sensitivity of the nipples ! Mentally it's something else. I feel a lot of excitement thinking back to yesterday, to the confirmations that I have been able to have and to the limits that I have crossed.
Scars, subdrop is present. A twelve-hour night and a little emptiness today… This is the price to pay for all this waiting, this anticipation, this apotheosis and these memories ! I don't know why I had such a hard time saying “Yes Madam” or “thank you Madam” yesterday during the session. But today I can easily write : thank you Madam !
Testimony of F.
